Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Let me take care of the ones you care for so I can care for you

Dec 03 2013

I was asked by Jesus last night to let go my need to take care of all I care for (not physical level as in stop doing what needs to be done, but at an inner level of prayer)... he said "just for a bit, let me take care of the ones you care for so I can take care of you".

It was so surprising to see I could not let go in him the way he wants me to... there are such subtle attachments to caring for my loved ones with prayers that thinking if I let it all go, all around me will fall apart. That is nothing but control in the name of prayers. Finally every step of the way I have been shown it will be what it will be and the broader the prayer the more effective... but even the purest of intentions I have are subtle levels of control.

It always is his will... it just takes some time to see the subtle levels of attachments and let them go.

And this layer of subtle attachment really took me by surprise... to see even a prayer is a form of control... that even a prayer has to be let go... it's like being shaken by the root and being uprooted... it has always been about prayers and letting go... but even a prayer is a thought, a subtle need for control...

So many subtle layers to see and let go. 

Monday, May 13, 2013

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Look Within...

We encounter many people in our lives. Some though, stick out, we become more aware of their presence, we get more attached to them, be it as an attraction or a repulsion (aversion).

These people are not there by chance. We attract them. Else they would be a part of the millions of people we encounter through our lives and not notice. They are there because there is some aspect about them that we either want to be, not aware that it is a part of us that is hidden in us, that just has to be seen (when there is an attraction) or there is some aspect about them that we have in ourselves that we don't like and are hiding from/not aware of consciously (when there is a repulsion or aversion, they make us angry or sad or bring up negative reactions in us).

If we can see this aspect, we can let the over-attachment go. When we see this aspect within ourselves, when we see we already have this aspect in us and don't need the other to complete us or don't have to be ashamed of (mind labels), we can embrace it all, good or bad and let it go.

When we see the aspect of another in us, that is keeping us attached to the other, we can let it go and accept and love the other and ourselves just as we are.

So, if we take a look at the people in our own life we may be overly attached to (attracted to or repulsed by), we can see what they are trying to show us about ourselves. There really is no other, it is all us. Not in a non-dual way, but in an acceptance way.


Lost In... a "Dance"

Thursday, March 28, 2013


Lost In ... an "Embrace"
This one just flowed... No pencil, models, pictures to inspire... Picked up the paints and brush and three hours later this is what emerged. ♥
This one is my experience of a Divine embrace... has a feel of Krishna but not definite... there was no peacock intended... but many see a peacock in the painting.

Sunday, March 10, 2013


This is my second oil painting using the same technique as Emergence. It was my homework :-D


Friday, March 8, 2013


My first oil painting. The feel I have of this painting is like Ma Ganga emerging from Lord Shiva.

I had a great time using this technique to create the painting. It's beautiful to watch the painting emerge. Below is a progression of how this painting came about . In this technique you allow the painting to emerge.