Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Let me take care of the ones you care for so I can care for you

Dec 03 2013

I was asked by Jesus last night to let go my need to take care of all I care for (not physical level as in stop doing what needs to be done, but at an inner level of prayer)... he said "just for a bit, let me take care of the ones you care for so I can take care of you".

It was so surprising to see I could not let go in him the way he wants me to... there are such subtle attachments to caring for my loved ones with prayers that thinking if I let it all go, all around me will fall apart. That is nothing but control in the name of prayers. Finally every step of the way I have been shown it will be what it will be and the broader the prayer the more effective... but even the purest of intentions I have are subtle levels of control.

It always is his will... it just takes some time to see the subtle levels of attachments and let them go.

And this layer of subtle attachment really took me by surprise... to see even a prayer is a form of control... that even a prayer has to be let go... it's like being shaken by the root and being uprooted... it has always been about prayers and letting go... but even a prayer is a thought, a subtle need for control...

So many subtle layers to see and let go.